Acting like I don’t care.

It’s always been almost like a second nature to me to ‘act like I don’t care’ when in reality I do, very much. It’s just people have been hurt so many times in the past that when you put up a front to people and if they believe that it doesn’t phase you then chances are you’ll soon to believe it too. 

However, it back fires. Acting like you don’t care then going home and being sad about something that no one knows about only affects and hurts yourself. I know everyone always says to not keep your emotions inside, but sometimes when you’ve been screwed over so many times you just have to because you’re scared, insecure, defeated about whatever happened to you in the past. I try not to but it’s so hard. 

That’s hot. Looks legit.

That’s hot. Looks legit.

Raaaaayybans B}

Raaaaayybans B}

The only reason why I can deal with work sometimes when I get stressed over it is because of my coworkers and sometimes my managers loveeeeee emmmmmm to death!

The only reason why I can deal with work sometimes when I get stressed over it is because of my coworkers and sometimes my managers loveeeeee emmmmmm to death!

I look like an Asian doll with my straight bangs! Bizzzzored, can’t go to sleep tonight =(

I look like an Asian doll with my straight bangs! Bizzzzored, can’t go to sleep tonight =(

Building my own relationship with God…

It truly is a blessing, to have a relationship with him, to fall in love with God. In the morning, during the day, at night, I talk to him as much as I can and I think about why things happen the way they do. Like why did I have such a blessed day today, god? Or why did I have such a bad day. To yearn for him, to ask for him, to talk to him, to seek to him, are all your choices but to actually commit to all of these you must until eternity. My relationship with God grows stronger and powerful every second of every day and mostly, every time I pray. Fall in love with God.

Me with absolutely no make up what’s so ever. Curled my hair a little though, hehe. Back to studying! Yes I know I look like a little girl…

Me with absolutely no make up what’s so ever. Curled my hair a little though, hehe. Back to studying! Yes I know I look like a little girl…

Painting my nails and caught up with PLL.

Painting my nails and caught up with PLL.

A happy girl at Disneyland!

A happy girl at Disneyland!

Can I just say……….

It feels so good, to finally be going back to school! I HATED skipping a whole semester off of college. But I also knew that I wasn’t going to be like one of those people when once they skip a semester, they skip years of college… LOL. Just cause I’ve been anxious/excited about it all! To LEARN, study, work hard, educate myself, etc. What’s not to like? Yeah of course there are the negatives about going to school like boring teachers, bad parking, bad days, stressing on too much homework/studying, expensive things, but all I know is that it’s going to work out in the end. Eventually. Sooner or later. All the money that I’ll be spending on books, parking permits, study tools, whatever, are investments to my future, career, education, and more! I’m ahead of my homework assignments today and man it just feels really good to go back to my study grind and feeling productive and independent. School right now isn’t even that hard for me. Sure, it has a lot of work and tests every week! But it’s college, not high school anymore. Alright, good night. =) since I’m still sick.. OMG. 

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